At first, I was skeptical of the whole idea of Life-Coaching. I didn't quite know what the session was going to entail - but I had a natural fear of being manipulated into paying for things I didn't need, being analyzed and judged, experiencing weird vibes of deception in my exchanges with people, and I was becoming increasingly protective of my wounds - I was healing from my so-called 'trials and tribulations' and I didn't need someone else (especially a stranger) intimately involved in my personal and sacred and often indescribable, incomprehensible (unpredictable) psyche.
And then I met Karmen. Within the first 10 minutes I started feeling the tense ball in my stomach subside. I started feeling like I was actually not only allowed to be myself (and this isn't always received well by people) but I was also encouraged to be more honest, search deeper for what it is I really want to say.... And was I encouraged to invite the youngest, wildest, truest inner child I could muster into the room. Karmen's sincerity and care for me was absolutely transparent and I felt I really trusted her. At this stage of my life this was quite something, for I was like a frightened rabbit and very careful in general not to trust just anyone. I had some major blocks in my flow with others, and had by now developed a habit of psycho-analysing when interacting with people (something that can become quite exhausting and also inaccurate at times) - but I felt at ease. In her presence I could let this all fade away. I now don't feel so afraid of people. I am way more present and I feel my focus has shifted into healthier realms of consciousness.
Karmen is comfortable in her own skin, she follows her own dreams and passions, and is open about her own flaws, fears and fantasies. Her determination and consistency inspired me to strive to adopt the same habit. I was relieved when I found myself in a position where I now had someone teaching me how to do this.
I also realised that there was way more to Karmen's therapeutic coaching, than what the course-material she had studied could have provided. She has something very unique and mysterious, to have the ability to sit in front of a complete stranger and guide them in and around and then into their softer selves. I sometimes still meet with her. It feels good opening up to her, I feel that she helps me somehow find the questions I have been asking myself. And then I can take it from there and find the solutions to problems I have always felt were there but could never really face or put onto paper.
She is delightful when the energy is ready for it, she is compassionate when you reveal a wound, and she is sensitive to feeling out when you yourself are being genuine - and when this happens - she is extremely encouraging. I felt excited to go home and practice being more honest, allowing the secrets of my own heart to be revealed to me... and eventually imagine what it would be like to live a life without hesitation and self-pity, stagnancy and self-consciousness; second-guessing every little decision I make, or feeling I feel. I knew by the end of that first session already that I wanted to be FREE and OPEN and REAL and BRAVE. And I found that I could see it in her.
The content she read to me and chose for me was astoundingly accurate and in-sync with my current path, my challenges and blocks, and my blindspots. It revealed to me what I wasn't seeing, and she (metaphorically) gently took me by the hand and walked me around the 'high old walls of my castle' that is My Being, and together we pointed at all the alternative climbing routes I could take up them... and I could then climb into the windows of solution. As I climbed I started experiencing an evolution of some very deeply embedded mind-patterns and heart-secrets.
Michelle Marx. South Africa. Sunday 9 February 2020